Wednesday Diaries: how my heart is broken by a book

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I’ve had my heart broken several times by a book (i.e. The Knife of Never Letting Go by Patrick Ness, The Fault In Our Stars by John Green, Where She Went by Gayle Forman, Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro) but nothing has prepared for the kind of heartbreak I experienced last week.

One of my required readings for this month was A Storm of Swords by George R.R. Martin and I must admit that I had a hard time trying to finish this chunkster of a book. This is already my third attempt to finish the book, and because of the challenge, I am glad that I made good progress with my reading. I actually made it a point not to simultaneously read another book so that I can focus more on the story and finish it this month. But towards the end, I had to have my heart broken.


The Red Wedding was totally unexpected and I had to take a breather for three days before I finally mustered enough courage to go on. I had to go out and eat cake (lots of cake) and my dreams were all of Westeros. I kept ranting on Twitter and disturbed some of my friends with text rants about the book (hi, Maria! hi, Meliza!). It was tremendous effort for me to pick up the book again and resume reading because after that big heartbreak, I have lost the desire to finish the book. Yes, that’s how affected I was. I still am, actually.

I still aim to finish the book before the month ends, though. I want my sweet revenge. I want my broken heart to be mended again. As much as I want to kill Mr. Martin for his cruelty and for tearing my heart into pieces, I still have this faith in him that he will be able to justify all the things that he did to my favorite characters.

A few chapters more. But for now, let me grieve.

12 thoughts on “Wednesday Diaries: how my heart is broken by a book

  1. If it makes you feel better, I was sleepless for several days after that. And my husband was sleepless that same night when I read that part. LOL.

    You can finish it, go Lynai! 😉

    1. Thanks for the motivation, Monique! I just feel bad for all of my favorite characters. So far, I haven’t read anything that will cheer me up yet, but I am counting on your and Maria’s promises that I will have my revenge at the end. 😀

  2. I think the Red Wedding chapter affected me less because I already knew about it from watching the tv show, prior to reading the books. The episode was actually called The Rains of Castamere, which I had the mistake of watching at night, and thus got me all riled up to sleep. Hehe. And I actually found the the tv depiction to be more harrowing than the one in the books. But still, when I read about it in ASOS, it brought back all the frustration and anger. Hee.

    And yes, let revenge drive you to finish the book! Vengeance will be ours! *cackles wickedly*

  3. Actually, Tin’s comment pretty sums up what I want to say.

    Go, go, go, Lynai! Finish it. I would love to receive more text messages from you about this book. 😀

    1. I read the buddy reading thread on Goodreads, and I saw that “walling” gif you posted. Haha. But still, </3 </3 </3.

      Starting A Feast for Crows this week! 🙂

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